Danielle

pointless

it's pointless to blog right now. Having so many thing happening in a week and that term test is like 2weeks later.

Normal school work, CDS, projects(3), quizzes, term test, GIG, SLP..... Everything have to be ''up-to-standard''. Seems abit demanding but yeah, life's this way.

Pipc tutorial quiz i got 6 out of 10. I hate it when my peers asked, ''what happened to you danielle?'' or smthg even worse, ''aiyo, danielle go dating until she neglected her studies la..'' in the past, i just give them the ''wtf'' face but now, i will tend to quarrel back. Issit that imma unreasonable? Stress? Or just cant accept criticism?

Things getting more obivous when tests are coming. The number os calls/smses on hmwk/schoolwork increases as the days left for tests decreases..

I sometimes just fuck care them alr. I am very fucked up seriously

Baik!

okei dokei. Things have been falling into places that i expected it to be. Baby was there with me when i needed him most ytd. Nothing beats the word compromise. It's just whether we're willing to sacrifice small things to be able to receive big happines in the end. School is really tiring these days since imma still struggling hard with td and am while pipc and oc dont look simple at all alr. The war has just started but the fire in me is getting weaker.

bad day

a week after my moodswing, i encountered a bad bad day with my baby boy. Seems like the 4th month is a tough one ahead.

I broke down infront of baby, and i think i scared him. The emotions are just stirring up inside until today, everything just exploded out in a go. BOOMZ. Terrible.

We came to a compromise and i think it's a good one. Babyboy still loves me and i still love him too.

lost

i lost to my moodswings again. I just hate the end of the month when imma having my period soon. Sigh.

I dunno why at that instant when i was told that my arms are flabby, i blew my top at my friends. I hate to see myself throwing temper at them or anyone. I so wanna apologise to them, but i guess i broke the ice somehow. All thanks to baby boy. He called and told me to cheerup. Dont know why, after complaining to him, i felt really good and happy. ((:

Right. Danielle ought to learn how to control her temper now. XD

Thank goodness she got a group of understanding friends and a lovely boyf to cheer me up at all times. Better than the giordano cheer me up tee lor. =P

swings

mood swings have been getting from bad to worse these months. I just hate it. Especially that i showed attitude to my boyf. I can be extremely happy in this moment, but very sad the next, and gotten angry later. It's like there's no transmission in between just like SN2, everything changed so quickly and violently, resulted me hurting my baby's feelings.

Ytd was a bad day. Both of us were very emotionally stirred up in school. but thank goodness, everything was somewhat resolved by the end of the day. Boyf knew what's gg on and decided to give in and i felt very pampered.